Surviving depression and accepting the cracks

Sometimes I wonder what it is I believe, if anything, and at times I look within and see only the black maw of the empty space. The sense of loss of questions unanswered, of the frailty of human and I suppose my life, all come about and turn on me. However the thing that has rescued me recently is in a name, strangely it is my own name….

The story of King David is an extraordinary one, he is the greatest of Kings even Jesus is called the Son of David and of the Line of David. He is a man brought from nothing to be a King of his people. Yet he is frail, tempted, not so good really, and throughout his story there is one other name that crops up it is the name NATHAN, which means a gift. In the beginning Davids gift is the friendship, companionship and love of jo-nathan (Jonathan) who stands by him and offers him a greater love than David has ever known, but this Jonathan is killed.

The second Gift is that of the prophet Nathan, a questioner of David, a friend to him, in that he re-fathers him, when David commits the sin of taking another mans wife, he tells him he is wrong, and lets him know that he can’t get away with this kind of crappy behaviour.

These two gifts are on the one hand the love one needs for oneself, affirmed by another and the questioning and guidance one needs to keep on the right track.

However there is a 3rd gift which I would like to bring myself and this is about this dark place within us. We live in a society of cures, maybe this place does not need curing , maybe it is apart of who we are. In this world of things, it is the important place of no thing (nothing) and it has its purpose. Look at the gaps between paving stones on the pavement or sidewalk, look at the gaps between floorboards, they are there for a reason, when they heat up they expand and if the gap was not there they would buckle and warp and bend and break and be no use to anyone. The Gap is there to expand into, it does not need to be filled as many do -with drugs and alcohol and food- it just needs to be valued. That gaping maw of darkness we sometimes glimpse inside ourselves is merely the sum of the spaces between the building block, the paving stones and the planks that make us who we are. if it were not there how could we be filled with joy, passions, life, spirit or even sadness and pain.

Accept the love and the guidance and acknowledge and welcome the place of no thing….for we are all potential King Davids.

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